November 16, 2009

Di kala Isnin Datang dan Berlalu

Mungkin ia tiada kaitan dengan tajuk di atas. Mungkin ada juga..dan mungkin memang tiada. Hanya si penulis blog ini yang tahu. Dengan berbekalkan ilham dari Gudang Garam , ideaku melimpah-limpah tapi setakat ini, tak banyak yang ingin disampaikan. Cuma buah fikiran seseorang yang sedang kesepian. Tiada panggilan dari kawan mahupun teman. Tak apa..I'll just wait..

Pagi tadi, I think I woke up in the wrong side of the bed..Or was it the anxiety that killed me first thing in the morning? Menunggu text dari seseorang yang amat dicintai. Salahku juga kerana lambat membalas pesanannya malam sebelumnya. Ku terjaga dalam kira-kira pukul 6.30 pagi dan well the rest is history. Aku hanya boleh katakan "I'm sorry for what I did this morning. For being a total bitch .For disappointing you. I love you with every beat of my small heart". Some say it's mostly my fault while others say it's not intentional and it was just a total coincidence tapi I still feel the aftershock of it.Thanks to my anxiety attack (if that even exists) and the guilt I felt..aku hanya dapat mengalirkan air mata sambil memikirkan kesudahan alternatif pagiku. "If only I was there..." hanyalah kata-kata yang mampu aku bisikkan di sebalik air mata yang mula berkumpul di mataku.Shit happens..hidup la katakan..Walaupun surprise Baby tak menjadi,namun aku terharu dengan usahanya and for that, I thank him and I am sure he knows how much I appreciate him amidst all the verbal wars and emotional meltdowns with myself or the people around me..Oh well, kita tingalkan sajalah cerita itu sampai di sini..

II

We are so caught up with our material lives the we tend to get involved in cases of "concerns and neglect" a lot of times..in our daily lives..Neglect in the terms of forgetting other people..or even minimizing their involvement in our daily lives just because..of some certain 'inevitable' facts. And well,this is where the heartless human actions come in...It's even available online and on the streets. Whispered and told by others too.. Tak percaya, buka la mata tu sendiri.
Oh well, apa yang ku bisa katakan hanyalah - "That's life!!"

Masih lagi banyak persoalan yang bermain di fikiran but I haven't got much time to do so..need to harvest my crops and reply comments in FB & MS..damn! Speaking about being caught up with cyberspace...


Sekian for now.

xoxo


2 comments:

asianweed said...

what happened?

Lyndz Ayano said...

lol..where do i begin? tapi tu sume dah lepas..ak dah tak igt sgt pon :) LOL